Being an Empath, What others dont see.

Many of you may not know what an empath is or do not believe such things exist. You may have been told that empaths are of the devil and that they are not good. You may also think that its nothing special because "any one can show sympathy for others...." These are things that I have been hearing for quite some time. I always knew that there was something special, something different about me but I could never quiet put my finger on it . Its amazing how when you are younger and going through so many things that you just think what you are going through is normal. You then are several years older and realize that in fact that was NOT normal at all. I am here to tell you that to be an empath, is a gift, a special gift that you should embrace. For those that do not know what an empath is, or at least the TRUE definition : (thank you empathguide.com) "An Empath is a person who can psychically tune in to the emotional experience of a person, place or animal. In the paranormal and in some works of science fiction and fantasy, highly developed empathy is a psychic ability to sense the emotions of others and often highly aware of the health and state of mind of their loved ones, no matter how physically near or far away the individuals may be. It can be challenging for empaths to function healthily in society if they are unaware that they have this sensitivity and often opt to be alone."
Now, at first glance you are probably thinking " Oh great ,she thinks she knows ALLLLL." No that's not it. I just know what you don't know. I call things before they happen. I can feel something is not right with a family member half way across the country. I know things about your life that you haven't talked to any one about just by being in your presence. I am extra sensitive to people hurting and I can physically feel your heart ache that you are feeling. I can heal you with my words and I just seem to always have the right knowledge and right words to say to heal your heart. I love nature and animals and I feel at peace near water or nature itself. I know when somethings not right even when the rest of the world sees it is. I can know what type of personality someone has just by looking at a picture. I can sense paranormal activity others cant. Half the time I don't know if what I am feeling is my own emotions or yours. I cant watch the news with out breaking down and sobbing because I can feel the pain and anguish your watching on tv as if it is happening to me. I cant watch violent movies. I know whose calling my phone with out even picking it up to check half the time and I feel at peace within myself during a thunderstorm then in sunny weather.
It started hitting me hard over the last few years and I have to tell you I use to second question it all. I do not do it as much. One day my husband was going to the grocery store for me . And right before he left I had this feeling that when he came back from the store when he went to go check the mail the truck would die on him. I didn't say anything I shrugged it off thinking I was just crazy. Sure enough when he got home : " Hunny the dang truck died on me  when I went to check the mail." Much to my surprise I was like oh WOW. Did not see that one coming . There have been other times when I have done that . I have literally also had people ask me to sage their houses to get rid of negative spirits and had me walk through their house to tell them what kind of thing was in their house. It can be over whelming because as an Empath your senses are tripled then a normal human being. No saging is not witchcraft, the great Indians use to do it and it actually has cleansing and healing properties. I have noticed as an empath I experience dejavu a lot. Its something I am getting use to. I may be skipping all over this page and for that I am sorry, but being an empath is such a complex thing I am still learning about it myself. Its hard when your husband doesn't completely understand what you are going through. Its hard when some one you love has a lot of axiety that you start to have it yourself, and you don't know if its theirs or yours. Half of the emotions I feel on a regular basis are not even my own . People wonder why I can not go into crowds? Because I am picking up on several different peoples emotions, their energies. Plus as stated in a previous blog, I have axiety being closed in because of the abuse I endured from my ex. normal people go out and don't pay attention to things they just go on about their business. I am trying not to bump into people. I am trying to breath lol. I am a very unique person and it takes the right kind of person to have a conversation with. I am so deep in my thoughts and emotions of not only myself but of others, that I want that convo you don't talk to any one about . I want to help you fix your problems. Empaths have the tendency to take on others problems as their own and neglect what issues they have for themselves. It is so difficult going around a stranger and all of a sudden randomly telling them " what ever it is , its not worth it. Its going to be okay you just have to do this and this and that, then this can happen. But watch out for that one person because they will bla bla bla." Its amazing how I can know details about your life and I don't even know you. This doesn't happen all the time but when it does it just comes to me with out warning.  Empaths are healers. Empaths feel what the world fails to feel.  I have a few select people that ask me " how do you handle this , I am all over the place?" The answer is in fact I don't handle it. I don't have all the answers. I am still learning myself. But I feel that if you put one foot in front of the other and try to help each other theres nothing you cant accomplish. Sometimes I wish I could make others feel what I feel every day, I think they would end up in the looney bin lol. I am that person that tells you what YOU have gone threw in YOUR past and I am a stranger to you. I am the one telling you how to approach a situation and what the outcome will be if you do it this way. I am the lady you probably think is nuts because I'm all over the place, but yet I am right on track. There are so many people that done even know they are an empath and that they have a gift that think they are just going mad. I am here to tell you been there, done that and still there :) you are not alone . There are groups out there where you can talk to people that share your gifts that God has given you. I for got to mention that my mother is an empath like me, my grandfather is and empath like me and so is my aunt. Some people are born with it  and no one else has it others are passed down through generation. Do not make fun of people whom are extra sensitive to things they just have to make up for the coldness of the world. Never forget that . If an one has any questions I am here. I do not have all the answers, but we can learn together .There are gifts I am just now starting to come into so I am taking it as it comes. You can do the same, but just know you are not alone out there. Your not crazy, a lot of empaths are diagnosed with mental illnesses because society does not believe empaths exist. its not all in your head . It is truly a gift even though there is a down side to it that makes it feel like a curse . Here are some links that will help you on your journey.

http://themindunleashed.org/2013/10/30-traits-of-empath.html

https://www.eliselebeau.com/

This is a very good article. Explains how being an empath can ruin relations ships I can relate to over half of this article this will help many of you :

http://chakracenter.org/2013/12/20/mental-health-how-being-an-empath-can-ruin-relationships/

Curves

The pain is tearing at my flesh 
The distance is working my nerves 
All life is, is an endless road 
with nothing but sharp curves. 
Curves that strip my self esteem 
that prick upon my spine 
leaving me to bleed endlessly 
as I am slowly dying. 
You are so far away 
and it's killing my inside 
Everyday I get closer 
to wanting to run and hide. 
I'm in love with you so deeply 
but the curves get in the way 
I wish they'd become straight 
so everything would be okay. 
Curves of all this Hell 
will eternally seem to arise 
I wish you were here 
to wipe away these tears from my eyes.

*Mental illnesses are real*

Every One has struggles . Every one has something going on that causes them stress. But what do you do when you are stressed every day for your entire life it seems? What do you do when the things you have been through have hendered you from being able to function like a normal human being? Anxiety is something that people take too lightly in my opinion. Mental conditions can cause a person to not be able to hold down a job, have a social life, have to be on medication for the rest of their lives and can just drive them crazy. Every one in my house has a challenge and struggle with this . Mental illnesses are real. Especially for the ones that cope with them on a daily basis. I was diagnosed with Bi-polar disorder and Ptsd and anxiety in 2010. Then I was undiagnosed from Bi-polar years later and I currently have Ptsd, anxiety and A.D.D. I was also being severely abused by my ex whom is the biological father of my children who (btw is a felon. but thats for another blog :) )
For the longest I thought it was a misdiagnoses because of what I was going through. But now as I am older and have been through so many struggles and have gotten wiser I realize I really am what they say I am. It is hard looking in the mirror and knowing that you are no where near normal. Its hard to function sometimes and It drives me crazy. It has been 5 years since I was with my abuser and sudden movements still make me shake and spazz out. Being in tight spaces puts me in a panic because he use to corner me in them and do horrible things. Just for every ones information for those that are just tuning in, Ptsd happens to more then just those whom lay down their lives for us in the military. It could be a wife being abused. Some one that was held at gun point in the local grocery store. A rape victim. Any one that has had a traumatic experience can have this condition. No not every one that has been threw anything like that has it. But I believe that people are ill informed . At the end of this blog I will post links for those who are curious or would like to be updated. Since I moved back to the state where my ex lives My anxiety has trippled. I am scared to leave my house half the time . I dont handle crowds very well like I use to be able to handle them. I went from being a social butterfly to practically a shut in. The thought of working around people and not in the back somewhere where the public can't see me terrifies me. Now I know people think I am crazy because the abuse I endured happened 5 years ago, how can it possibly still affect her? Well I am here to tell you that it does. You never really get over it, you just learn to cope with it. The people that have been through horrible things that still act like they are fine, I guarentee they hide it very well, or they just deal with it in private. I on the other hand am a very sensitive person. My emotional roller coaster has caused me problems in my relationships and friend ships. If I cant keep up with my moodiness then I cant imagine how others see me and feel when they are around me when I have an episode. I am not as bad as some but its still something I would not wish upon any one. Being abused helped contribute , but it is not the basis of my condition. The great Robin Williams, who is my favorite person of all time, dealt with depression and mental illnesses. It took him passing for others to raise awareness for it. It is not something you can just get over like so many love to tell us. Its a medical condition just like a physical condition you have to take medication and treatment for. Its just in your head. So the next time you see someone that has a mental condition, hug them. Tell them you love them. Tell them they are not alone. Educate them.Tell them they are not a skrew up. Because honestly I know I feel that way every day I get out of bed. What many people dont know is that mental illnesses can affect your physical over all being, as well as stress. It is hard managing a husband , children, a job, school or what ever it is you do in your every day life. Imagine doing it with set backs. Imagine handling your life not being able to leave your house . Not being able to go to church because you have a mental condition that makes you paranoid you are being judged every where you go and that people are plotting against you. I do not live with this condition but there are ones out there that do. Not being able to go to that family reunion, Not being able to work or have friends . Some of the ones that you see walking around that are happy ( not all of them) all the time and seem to have it together, really dont. When they go home they sob and sob and sob. They put a front off for the rest of the world to see because they dont want any one to know what they are really going threw. What they wouldnt give for someone to just wrap them in their arms and tell them its going to be alright and that they are there for them. How many times have you looked on the news or the papers and saw some one kill them selves and the families just couldnt wrap their head around why they would do that . " they were so happy" " they had anything they could ever want" " I just dont understand there were no warning signs, if I had known maybe this could have been prevented." The ones that dont let you see, are the ones you really need to keep an eye on. You could save a life. So hug your family. If you know someone with a mental condition even if its mild axiety or mild depression. Do NOT over look them. Let them know you love them. Its a rough road, But if you put your mind to it and can be a voice for someone that can not speak up for themselves for what ever reason, I promise you you will be able to sleep better at night. 



Here are the links I promised you to various mental conditions. If you are uninformed and know someone with these conditions, It might help you understand them better :) Happy reading!

http://www.webmd.com/mental-health/tc/post-traumatic-stress-disorder--symptoms

http://www.webmd.com/bipolar-disorder/default.htm

http://www.webmd.com/schizophrenia/default.htm

http://www.webmd.com/depression/guide/link-to-other-mental-illnesses ( depression and anxiety)

http://www.webmd.com/add-adhd/default.htm

http://www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org/

 ^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^PLEASE SEE! and Give this link to any one that could benefit from it.!!! You could save a life!!!!!!