Every One has struggles . Every one has something going on that causes them stress. But what do you do when you are stressed every day for your entire life it seems? What do you do when the things you have been through have hendered you from being able to function like a normal human being? Anxiety is something that people take too lightly in my opinion. Mental conditions can cause a person to not be able to hold down a job, have a social life, have to be on medication for the rest of their lives and can just drive them crazy. Every one in my house has a challenge and struggle with this . Mental illnesses are real. Especially for the ones that cope with them on a daily basis. I was diagnosed with Bi-polar disorder and Ptsd and anxiety in 2010. Then I was undiagnosed from Bi-polar years later and I currently have Ptsd, anxiety and A.D.D. I was also being severely abused by my ex whom is the biological father of my children who (btw is a felon. but thats for another blog :) )
For the longest I thought it was a misdiagnoses because of what I was going through. But now as I am older and have been through so many struggles and have gotten wiser I realize I really am what they say I am. It is hard looking in the mirror and knowing that you are no where near normal. Its hard to function sometimes and It drives me crazy. It has been 5 years since I was with my abuser and sudden movements still make me shake and spazz out. Being in tight spaces puts me in a panic because he use to corner me in them and do horrible things. Just for every ones information for those that are just tuning in, Ptsd happens to more then just those whom lay down their lives for us in the military. It could be a wife being abused. Some one that was held at gun point in the local grocery store. A rape victim. Any one that has had a traumatic experience can have this condition. No not every one that has been threw anything like that has it. But I believe that people are ill informed . At the end of this blog I will post links for those who are curious or would like to be updated. Since I moved back to the state where my ex lives My anxiety has trippled. I am scared to leave my house half the time . I dont handle crowds very well like I use to be able to handle them. I went from being a social butterfly to practically a shut in. The thought of working around people and not in the back somewhere where the public can't see me terrifies me. Now I know people think I am crazy because the abuse I endured happened 5 years ago, how can it possibly still affect her? Well I am here to tell you that it does. You never really get over it, you just learn to cope with it. The people that have been through horrible things that still act like they are fine, I guarentee they hide it very well, or they just deal with it in private. I on the other hand am a very sensitive person. My emotional roller coaster has caused me problems in my relationships and friend ships. If I cant keep up with my moodiness then I cant imagine how others see me and feel when they are around me when I have an episode. I am not as bad as some but its still something I would not wish upon any one. Being abused helped contribute , but it is not the basis of my condition. The great Robin Williams, who is my favorite person of all time, dealt with depression and mental illnesses. It took him passing for others to raise awareness for it. It is not something you can just get over like so many love to tell us. Its a medical condition just like a physical condition you have to take medication and treatment for. Its just in your head. So the next time you see someone that has a mental condition, hug them. Tell them you love them. Tell them they are not alone. Educate them.Tell them they are not a skrew up. Because honestly I know I feel that way every day I get out of bed. What many people dont know is that mental illnesses can affect your physical over all being, as well as stress. It is hard managing a husband , children, a job, school or what ever it is you do in your every day life. Imagine doing it with set backs. Imagine handling your life not being able to leave your house . Not being able to go to church because you have a mental condition that makes you paranoid you are being judged every where you go and that people are plotting against you. I do not live with this condition but there are ones out there that do. Not being able to go to that family reunion, Not being able to work or have friends . Some of the ones that you see walking around that are happy ( not all of them) all the time and seem to have it together, really dont. When they go home they sob and sob and sob. They put a front off for the rest of the world to see because they dont want any one to know what they are really going threw. What they wouldnt give for someone to just wrap them in their arms and tell them its going to be alright and that they are there for them. How many times have you looked on the news or the papers and saw some one kill them selves and the families just couldnt wrap their head around why they would do that . " they were so happy" " they had anything they could ever want" " I just dont understand there were no warning signs, if I had known maybe this could have been prevented." The ones that dont let you see, are the ones you really need to keep an eye on. You could save a life. So hug your family. If you know someone with a mental condition even if its mild axiety or mild depression. Do NOT over look them. Let them know you love them. Its a rough road, But if you put your mind to it and can be a voice for someone that can not speak up for themselves for what ever reason, I promise you you will be able to sleep better at night.
Here are the links I promised you to various mental conditions. If you are uninformed and know someone with these conditions, It might help you understand them better :) Happy reading!
http://www.webmd.com/mental-health/tc/post-traumatic-stress-disorder--symptoms
http://www.webmd.com/bipolar-disorder/default.htm
http://www.webmd.com/schizophrenia/default.htm
http://www.webmd.com/depression/guide/link-to-other-mental-illnesses ( depression and anxiety)
http://www.webmd.com/add-adhd/default.htm
http://www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org/
^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^PLEASE SEE! and Give this link to any one that could benefit from it.!!! You could save a life!!!!!!
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